Yes, 999 has been called out, Not for Fire, but for Ambulances. Unfortunately, my Dearest Mother finds herself very poorly in Hospital, so apologies folks if I miss any messages, commitments, or other important memo's.
A week later, I never expected to be in church, even less did I expect to be playing the Organ for the second consecutive week!!
Unfortunately, with a bit of a medical emergency within the parish of St Mark's in Wellingborough, I got the call for help!
I was in my element with the home comforts of a Keyboard, an Organ and a Dog!
Music included some wonderful Pentecost hymns: COME HOLY GHOST. COME DOWN, O LOVE DIVINE. LOVE OF THE FATHER. O THOU WHO CAMEST FROM ABOVE. AMAZING GRACE and WALK IN THE LIGHT. I finished the service on the organ with Kenneth Leighton's FANFARE.
I reflect on my performances, my musicality of the worship, and especially as I debate in my own mind, my own words about my faith last week.
It's interesting how I find particular words that require what Vince would describe as 'Word painting'
There are certain hymns that I deliberately take much slower than the norm, because, and imagine, a big thick paint brush, painting a very slow, steady but meaningful stroke. I particularly do this in John L Bell's song 'Will you come and follow me'
I also find similar need to do this with 'O thou who camest'
What I wonder...
Am I thinking about these words Religiously?
Am I trying to Push certain words to be sung with more meaning?
It's interesting me, I have spent some time, thinking critically about my faith, my religiousness, and wondering whether it is good enough, I actually find more and more reasons that suggest that "Maybe I do know what I am doing' and, why I am doing it!"
I am quite sure that we all have times when our faithfulness is questioned. Maybe I worded what I actually felt, incorrectly hastily, and in low-confidence.
I find myself at my best when I am running things, whether as Director of Music, Deputy Director of Music, or even as Emergency Director of Music.
That is when I worship at my best.
Ellie x
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