Here Endeth Chapter 26

If I were to be asked to name something that I’m really really bad at?

I’d probably laugh, as I’d then have to pick one of my bad things, or silly things to admit to!

In answer to the question today: I don’t read enough books!

Well here comes the end of chapter 26, and do you know, it feels really really odd!

Long gone are the birthdays worth celebrating. It’s just another day and another effort to get out of bed and face the world!

I’ve noticed, that the older I get, I find more emotion in me than ever before, I’ve put on an enormous amount of weight. I’m eating and preferring to eat food that I couldn’t even stand the smell of, I’m drinking more water, and I absolutely Love watching Test Cricket!

I’ve never been blessed with the most able body, and those struggles continue to recur much to my frustration.

On a recent trip to Peterborough, we celebrated the ordinations to the priesthood and diaconate. Loads of wonderful people, very blessed to their calling, and will be fantastic.

I’m glad I spent 3 days in the City. I’ve only really done day trips to the Cathedral so I thought it would be good to explore. Sadly I found the place very daunting, with locals not very welcoming towards people like me! I think outside of the church world, the best I got was a nod from a young mum who was pushing the pram towards me, so I stepped into the road to let her pass. I’m used to such treatment whilst out in public and however sad it is, it’s their problem and they don’t know me so “Oh well” but I couldn’t help but notice as I walked down each street, the diversity of cultures with various shops and stalls, so should I expect any different?

Car Parking In P’boro is like London… disgraceful!! So once the car was parked at the hotel, it weren’t moving again.

I think the furthest point I walked wasn’t much more than a mile each way, flat, and in the dry, good ground. But I found myself absolutely exhausted by the end of the weekend. I literally could’ve slept for a week!

I actually spent most of the week in the armchair, with the TV in one direction, and the window in the other to watch the world go by.

I feel like an old woman.

I struggle with my emotions more than ever before. I even cry at the Television now. Maybe what I watch is too close to home, too relatable, or reminds me of particular moments in my life.

I think back through all 26 chapters in my life as if it were a book, and there’s probably more page numbers than Complete Mission Praise.

I’ve known for a very long time how I feel about growing old, and However many or how few chapters is really not important to me at all. What is important to me is to be happy, enjoy what I have had, and what I have currently, and when it’s time for the book to shut, I’ll be happy to say thank you.

You all know that I’m a Manchester United fan, and part of being a Man-U fan, I hate Liverpool! Even if in love with a Liverpool fan! (I don’t recommend it though!)

The news about Diogo Jota was shocking! I cried!! But I agree with the comment that I think Dalgleish said: “Football doesn’t matter at times like these!”

This tragedy has reminded me and probably half the world… it could be anyone, at anytime!

And I want it to be written in black and white that age will not matter to me, I won’t be putting myself through war just to make the number go higher than my body wants, and however controversial that might sound, That’s how I want it to be!

Chapter 27 begins today, and we are celebrating “That it’s the 16th of July” I will be having a drink or two with my church choir in Orlingbury after choir practice this evening, and you are very welcome to join us!

I would imagine that the next few weeks and months will see some changes in my day to day life:

God willing, I will be studying the Lay Worship Leadership course, to further my ministry in church music.

I celebrate serving in church music for 10 Years with a service at St Andrew’s Wellingborough on Sunday 27th July.

I have been invited to become our Area Representative for The Guild of Musicians and Singers.

I look forward to returning to School in September to volunteer with the wonderful school choir, and support the wonderful PA department.

I’ll enjoy all the good moments, and sit in the armchair and wait for the bad moments to pass.

But for now I will be reducing the blog posts, as I go through an anticipated time of change. I must reflect and discern over this period in the quiet and privacy of my own heart.

So lots of love, keep in touch by WhatsApp or message.

Here endeth chapter 26